Avery’s first birthday has come and gone and I wanted to share his second letter meant for his 1st birthday.
To my sweet little Avery,
I have been thinking about writing this letter for a while now, trying to figure out what I want to write to you. The moment has finally arrived for me to put those thoughts down in writing and it is bitter-sweet for me. I am filled with so much happiness because you truly are such a blessing and I love watching you grow and learn new things everyday. At the same time, I am sad that this year is already over. Each morning you wake up one day older than you were just yesterday and sometimes all I want is to freeze time and stay locked in this moment with you forever.
You have grown so much this year. I have to admit, I had a hard time adjusting in the beginning. You demanded constant nurturing. I remember coming home from the hospital, taking a bath with you, and sitting down on the couch to nurse you. I don’t think we got up from that couch for three months. All you wanted was to nurse and cuddle and I am happy that we obliged, for those are such fond memories for me now. You have changed and learned so much. From getting your first teeth, to crawling and pulling yourself up, playing with your brothers, and making us laugh and love you more and more each day.
You have taught me that I need to slow down. I need to soak up every smile, every hug, and every giggle. It all goes by way too fast but I will never regret lost time with you because while you are young, that is exactly what I will do. I will soak it all up, I will be with you and make everyday about you. You have taught me to laugh everyday. You have the beautiful ability to find joy all around you. You have also taught me to notice the little things. Life is more beautiful when we could see the tiny miracles that surround us daily.
Today we have loved you 1 year, that’s 12 months, or 365 days, or 8 760 hours, or 525 600 minutes, or 3 153 600 seconds. and 3 153 600 seconds of memories of our time together that are both happy and sad. I remember the first time I attempted picking your brothers up from school with you. Half way there, you decided you wanted nothing to do with your stroller and would not stop crying. I had to put you inside my coat and carry you like a football, hoping that no one saw and judged me for how bizarre I looked. I laugh every time I think of this. I remember when you were six weeks old, and had a fever, I was told to bring you to the hospital. It was the worst moment of my life, sitting there watching you getting all these tests done and being unable to go to you and soothe your cries. Or the time I realized that you absolutely love to roll around on my bed and face-plant into the pillows. I could watch you playing like this forever. Every night I check on you before going to bed and when I see you there sleeping on your belly with your little bum in the air, I take a mental picture and hope to always remember you like this.
I look forward to the years ahead, to witnessing the many firsts that are yet to come. Your first steps, your first real words, your first temper tantrum, and your first day of school. To watching you complete a puzzle, play at the park, having fun, and making friends.
You are my absolute perfect baby! If I had to describe you with one word, it would be HAPPY. You are constantly smiling and charming your way into the hearts of everyone around you. I get stopped by so many people when we are out in public, telling me how gorgeous and happy you are. You love to play and laugh with your brothers, and boy do they love you! You are also very stubborn. You know what you want, and know exactly how to get it. You give me a hard time feeding you, you’ve never cared much for solid food and keep me on my toes. But I know that this will be put to good use once you’re older. It is known that stubborn, strong-willed children grow up to be successful adults. so carry on baby, mommy will take it.
You are amazing and I hope that you know how much your mommy and daddy love you.
I hope that you spend most of your days happy, just as you do now. That you continue to satisfy your curiosity and seek out new experiences, while always standing up for what you believe in.
I hope that you always remain kindhearted and seek to enrich the lives of those around you.
I hope that you could look back in twenty, forty, sixty, and hopefully eighty years from now and now that we loved you and will always love you.
Our baby boy, Avery
Love forever and always,