As a child and a teenager, I always knew that I wanted to be a stay-at-home-mommy while my kids were young. I was the kind of teenager who instead of going out partying and staying out til the early morning, would rather stay in with my high school sweetheart and watch a movie or at most, go out to see a movie. Everywhere I went, if there was a pregnant woman there, I would stare in amazement at her adorable belly and dream of the day that I too would be knocked up. High school girl looking forward to the day she’ll be knocked up…. every parent’s nightmare right?
I loved working as a daycare educator. It didn’t really feel like a job where you can’t wait for the weekend and dread Monday mornings. I got to play Mommy all day! However, when I did indeed get knocked up with not one but two babies, I could not bear the thought of returning to work. I know some women look forward to returning to their jobs and getting back some grown-up time after a long 12 months of baby talk and wearing food-stained clothes, but not this lady.
When I did return to work for almost a year while the boys were 3-years-old and my husband was in graduate school, I hated every minute of it. The boys were enrolled in the same daycare I worked at but in a different class and I just could not get used to the fact that I would be spending all day pouring all my love and energy into taking care of other people’s kids while watching them grow up from afar . With every sickness my kids would contract, which was A LOT considering it was their first time in daycare, my husband would have to leave work and stay with them because I couldn’t afford to miss any work hours. It broke my heart to not be able to nurse my children back to health and give them cuddles in their time of need. My husband and I made the decision together, that it was better for our family if I stayed home.
Yes, our budget is smaller. No, we don’t get to go on yearly vacations. No, we don’t own our own house. Yes, we are living off a student line of credit. There are sacrifices we have to make in order to live like this, but I think it’s all worth it. I can always go back to work when all my kids are in school. We will get to go on more vacations later on in life. We will eventually be able to buy a house. But my kids will only be kids for a short time and I want to soak it all up before it’s over. I will not regret missed time with my children later on in life. I will make it my goal, to give my kids a happy and memorable childhood because later when their lives are filled with adult responsibilities or when their mommy and daddy are gone, that is what they will remember about us.